DAY SIXTEEN

Wednesday March 6, 2013

DAY SIXTEEN- Apologize to anyone or anything you've done wrong in your life.  wow, that's heavy.  So I guess because ive done the most damage with her, id like to apologize to my mom.  For everything ive done to hurt her, really.  It was never my intention to upset her or hurt her, but when I was young and rebellious I did a lot.  Even through it all I was conscious of my decisions and tried to keep my mom in my  mind, as she instilled an amazing set of morals and values in me, and made my conscience strong.  I ran away from home a lot and moved out at a very young age due to the inability to live under someone elses rules comfortably.  It made it easier on both of us.  I told my mom once that I wished she was dead.. one and only time... quickly retracted the statement realizing what I had said and how heartbroken I would be if it actually happened and I had wished it on her.  Within 5 minutes I had apologized and made sure she knew it wasn't meant.  Overall I think I only really made a few years of her life really difficult.  But I do want to apologize to her for them.  Everyone goes through that rebellious teenage stage, mine was put to an abrupt end thanks to moving out.  Im sorry, mom, for putting you through what I did, I want you to know although im sure you already do, that I love you with all my heart and I appreciate everything you've done for me!
xox

DAY FIFTEEN

Tuesday March 5, 2013

DAY FIFTEEN-  tell us a mistake you made and how it impacted your life in a positive way.  The biggest mistake I made was moving out when I was so  young.  As a positive it taught me responsibility and independence and what the real world is all about.  It moulded my personality to the stubborn, hard headed yet laid back way that it is.  I has had the biggest impact on my life. both ways. but I wouldn't change it for the world.
xox

DAY FOURTEEN

Monday March 4, 2013

DAY FOURTEEN - what wouldndt I change about myself,  there is no way in hell I would change my independence.  my sense of humor, my take it or leave it attitude to the world.  My personality overall is pretty good haha.  I am very in tune with other peoples feelings and emotions and feed off of them at times.  I am brutally honest, wouldn't change that either, and my eyes, not a chance that I would ever give those up..  I also wouldn't change my past.  everything that happened has made me who I am and overall I think I can be pretty cool lol.
xox

DAY THIRTEEN

Sunday March 3, 2013

DAY THIRTEEN -  Today I am asked what I would change about myself, and there are several things.  Some of which im working on, but wouldn't mind an extra push lol. others theres not a whole lot I can do about it.  First of all I would change my body, tone and tighten and lose some lbs, but im working on that now, next I would change my views on life in general.  I am very kind, and generous, sometimes to a fault and it puts a strain on me.   I would do almost anything to make people happy, especially those I care deeply about.. when im in a relationship my partners happiness comes before my own.  my morals are better than most in this generation lol that can be good and bad but I don't know., if I could trade  my heart in for another liver id do that haha that way I could drink more and care less haha
xox

DAY TWELVE

Saturday March 2, 2013

DAY TWELVE -  Once again, I am behind my discipline sucks! haha  day 12 asks how my goal went.  and it went amazingly.  I spent close to 3 hours at the gym.  the last hour of which consisted of teaching random children how to swim it was adorable.  So not only did I meet but I exceeded my expectations lol
xox

DAY ELEVEN

Friday March 1, 2013

DAY ELEVEN- hey! day eleven! set yourself a goal for tomorrow.  So this should be alright, I pampered myself the other day by getting my nails done so tomorrow I will make sure to get to the gym for at least an hour, preferably 2 but I guess it depends on when my company comes over :)
easy day! lol see ya!
xox

DAY TEN

Thursday February 28, 2013

DAY TEN-  hey there! I don't really understand this challenge.  it says go to your own ask, do not hit the anon, post a question to yourself telling yourself you are beautiful.  I don't know what that means, so ill just do that right here. 

Kylie, you are BEAUTIFUL, you are such a special individual, there is no one in the world quite like you!
:)xox

DAY NINE

 

 

Wednesday February 27,  2013

 

DAY NINE-  Hey there, so again ive fallen behind.  my discipline is terrible!  Day nine asks for me to google my dress size and post a picture of someone in my dress size along with my thoughts, pretty? ugly?

 

 

So I chose this picture because it stood out the most to me.  she has about the same body type as I do, boobs are bigger though lol.  I think she is absolutely gorgeous.  not a stick figure, has some meat on her bones, but not chubby.  shes not perfect but she is definitely beautiful.  hourglass shape.  so pretty!

xox



DAY EIGHT

Tuesday February 26, 2013

DAY EIGHT-  Hey there, day eight already.  So today it asks for my dress size and what I am wearing now.  Sounds dirty haha.  So my dress size depends on the make of the clothes as im sure most peoples does.  I wear approximately a size 4-6 im not 100 percent sure.  I know that I wear size 27 pants, because I HATE when clothes dig into my skin, I like them to be more loose fitting.  I wear a medium on the bottom and generally a small on top. 
At this very moment I am wearing a black tank top size small and a pair of yoga pants size medium, black with a zebra print waist band with red hearts. I just got home from the gym lol
Until tomorrow!
xox

DAY SEVEN

Monday February 25, 2013

DAY SEVEN-  Sooo, a dreaded portion! Yuck!  I try not to focus too much on my flaws, theres way too many good features to focus on the bad.  But I guess since I am participating in this, I just have to suck it up and show off my "least favourite feature".

 

So I chose my thighs/ass.  I am actually very insecure about that area on me.  ive had stretch marks for as long as I can remember and bruise so easily.. it makes me uncomfortable! so uncomfortable I cant talk about anymore. 

ciao

xox

DAY SIX

Sunday February 24, 2013

DAY SIX-  Hey there, second catch up post!  Day six asks for a picture of my favourite feature on my body and why I like it, I think I can do that although it may be a toss up that I cant decide between.  Its either my stomach or my eyes.

So I decided on my stomach because it is something that can and will change, I was born with my eyes and though my stomach is the way it is mostly by nature it still needs to be worked on.   My stomach makes me smile.  I think it has a great shape to it, although there is a little bit of that "womans ponch" kind of fat below and around the belly button it is generally quite good.  It is pretty hard and definitely able to be improved via working out.  the lines down the sides always put a smile on my face as well.  I will be shredded around here soon enough :)
until next time!
xox

DAY FIVE

Saturday February 23, 2013

DAY FIVE-  Hey, so I slacked HARD this weekend.  I didn't get a chance to do any of the challenges so I will now get myself up to date.  Day 5 asks for a recent picture of myself and my thoughts, how much have I changed, etc so here it goes..

Overall I really like this picture, it shows my attitude and my lovely tattoos.  I think  I have definitely changed a lot over the years.  My hair id say is what I protect and value the moat in general, mostly because, well, you saw the hair disaster in the last post haha I had to deal with that for several years.  I think that for the most part I really like the way I look in this picture.

DAY FOUR

 

Friday February 23rd, 2013

 

DAY FOUR- Hey there!  Day four asks for an old picture of me, and for my thoughts.  I'm just going to cut to the chase, the picture I chose is probably from when i was around 10 years old.

 

 

All I can really say is... WOW haha.  That hair is ridiculous!  This picture never fails to put a smile on my face as my grandpa passed 4 years ago in march.  I love him to death, legitimately my hero!  I like this picture because it really shows my personality, always have been and always will be a very kind, caring, happy person.  If you mean something to me I am not afraid to show it, as this picture clearly shows.  Physically I cant judge too bad, im young and didn't have too much of a choice as to what I wore or how my hair was done.  I also don't think I cared too much about appearance at that age.  All in all this picture puts a smile on my face no mater what I look like.

Until tomorrow!

xox

 

 





DAY THREE

Thursday February 22, 2013

DAY THREE -  Todays post will be quite short.  First because I am exhausted, second because today the challenge asks for a list of things you don't like about yourself, but they put a limit of 2 on it.  Doesn't leave much room to expand.  Ill try to do one physical and one emotional/inner dislike.  I guess its good to have a limit but I think it should be more like 5.  I understand that you should never be too hard on yourself or point out your flaws as when you point them out others will notice them.  Someone could see you as something close to perfect, think you are the most beautiful person in the world but if all you do is point out your flaws and imperfections and weaknesses they will have no choice but to start seeing them as well.  Here goes....

1) I don't like my hip/buns/thigh area.  I hate that I have a ghetto booty that doesn't fit my body right, and my love handles drive me absolutely mental. I buy pants at least a size too big so that it doesn't cut into my body at all and give me the muffin top look.

2) I don't like my need to be loved.  My desire to be so deeply in love so far exceeds anything I have ever experienced that it creates somewhat of a false expectation.  I want the fairytale life subconsciously and that's not good.  I have no doubt that I will be loved like carl loves ellie one day, I just get impatient.

Until tomorrow....
xox

DAY TWO

Wednesday February 20th, 2013

DAY TWO-  Hey! So, day two asks me to write a list of things I like about myself.  At least 5, that's not too much to ask.  I don't think I have an issue with confidence, or finding things to love about myself.  Obviously as everyone does, I have my insecurities, but I have just as many reasons to love myself (if not more than) as I do to be hard on myself.  So here it goes.

Physically:
1) I like my eyes, theyre entrancing and beautiful
2) I like my smile, its huge and can light up a room. 
3) I like my stomach, I was blessed by nature with a decently toned mid section.

Emotionally/inside of me:
1) I like my sense of humor
2) I like my lack of regard for public opinion
3) I like my independence
4) I like the way I care about and empathize with those who matter in my life

Ive actually found this harder that it seemed.  When I think in my head I feel that the list could go on and on and on but as soon as I try to get it down on the screen it disappears.  It is hard to verbalize all the things you know inside that you love.  Maybe that's why we all tend to focus so much on the negative. I found myself concerned that I would be seen as conceited or vain by those reading this.  Society seems to tell us that we can go on and on all day about all the things that are wrong with us, but if we spend more than a small amount of time focusing on our strengths we end up getting looked down upon.  Ostracised and scolded for thinking too highly of ourselves.  REVELATION! haha, only day two and I'm understanding already.
Until tomorrow!
xox

DAY ONE

Tuesday February 19th, 2013

DAY ONE-- My name is Kylie Graves.  I have decided to start this 30 day love yourself challenge because I'm tired of not being completely happy with who I am.  I have been in and out of relationships over the years and have realized lately that I have never really been single.  I also realized that with that comes an inability to completely know who I am as an individual.   I want to be happy with who I am and where I am in my life before I attempt to welcome in my prince charming.   When I first moved here I forced myself to do things by myself so I wasn't so afraid to be alone.  I did learn to not only deal with my own company, but to love it and even go so far as to crave it at times.  I like my personal space now, I like to spend quality time with myself but I still find myself hitting a certain point where I miss having someone around.  I get extremely lonely, so I settle, and end up fighting and hurting myself for something that I knew from the beginning would never work.  
I'm done with it.  If I cant love myself how can I ever expect someone else to? So here I am!  Ready to discover and love myself for who I am.  Pros, Cons, Strengths, weaknesses.  I've always offered a take it or leave it attitude to the public, but inside long to be loved deeply.  Just once I want someone to be afraid to lose me.  I want someone to love me like Carl loves Ellie.  And now I'm ready to help it along.  :)
I look forward to the next 30 days.  To getting inside my own head and letting out my insecurities and weaknesses.  Everything that I have kept to myself, and even from myself for so long. Should be an interesting journey, I'm excited and ready.
xox